Monthly Archive: November 2015

The Other L Word

I had been doing really well staying within the parameters of our relationship and not allowing my mind to wander too much and to want things which were not possible. I was really proud of myself for living in the moment and just enjoying what we do have and not wanting what can’t be. But …

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Thanksgiving and the many things I am thankful for

I want to wish all my friends and family a happy Thanksgiving and I hope you all have a wonderful day! On this day of thanks I wanted to acknowledge the many things which I am grateful for, because I feel that I sometimes take things for granted and don’t fully appreciate how blessed I …

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Transgender Day of Remembrance 2015

Tonight I attended the Transgender Day of Remembrance in West Hollywood and it was a profoundly moving experience. To be there among so many in our community on this day was something I will never forget. I cried, I laughed, and most of all I felt very connected to this special community of people I …

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A special evening

I know there is no hope for a relationship. She is leaving in two weeks to return to her home in a different country, and the circumstances of her life prevent her from being in a relationship. I get it, I understand it, and I accept the realities of the situation. I’m not letting my …

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The heart wants what it wants…

The heart is an amazing thing. Medically speaking, it’s nothing short of miraculous. But it’s the other aspect of the heart which fascinates me; the part that loves. My heart has experienced a depth of love I could never have imagined but has also been battered and broken through the years. There have been times …

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My Four Year Anniversary of Living Full-time as Becca

November 1st was a special day for me because it marked the four year anniversary of when I began living full time as a woman. It has arguably been the most difficult and challenging four years of my life, and there were times when I didn’t know if I’d make it. But I did survive …

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Veterans Day

Veterans Day is very personal to me and a day which has deep meaning, not only because I am am veteran and my son is currently serving in the military, but because I have a deep appreciation of those who choose to serve this country to protect our rights and freedoms. And a special thank …

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Relaunch of the new and improved beccabenz.com!

Welcome to my new and improved website! I’ve had this domain for a while and had a blog using a different web-hosting service, but I didn’t like the format and limited options it had and the blog was dormant for a while. But after several weeks of working to get the domain transferred and several …

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My Road to Becoming a Grooby Girl – Part 2

Note: I’m reposting a few of the posts from my old blog to my new blog. After having failed yet again to get an offer for a job which I was extremely qualified for and after having had two really good interviews, I reached the point where I no longer felt I had any chance …

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My Road to Becoming a Grooby Girl – Part 1

Note: This was originally post on my old blog on 3/8/15 The fact that I’m a porn model is nothing short of miraculous, and how that came to be is equally mind-boggling. Never could I have imagined that I would be doing this, let alone loving it and enjoying some measure of success. Even as …

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